LUCIFER'S MASQUERADE

A crowd full of strangers, persons with different masks, each portrayed differently, happily, uniquely. Some were funny and silly while others were teary and lonely.
Love music filled the air as everyone danced beyond compare.

I, too, joined these people, like a daredevil stranger who knew nothing but danger... A happy-go-lucky gambler who deals with LIFE and even DEATH ...
I met different persons in each minute that passed by; different names, different faces, different personalities.

Then the music changed to its slow beat. And each person there has someone to dance with, except ME.
How pity of me to stand in a crowd with no one to hold on to, to cling on to ...

Much to my surprise, why did it has to be this way? I used to have someone beside me, well, not just 1 man, but 2, 3 or more! They used to love me, used to hug me, or build their world around me. And with that, i was pleased, never knowing that long before I've been hurting them one by one, not even considering their efforts and how they showed and showered their love for me. i fooled them with my charm and fake innocence but now I'm everybody's fool - useless and undeserving!

just when i decided to turn my back on the dance floor, someone held my hand and asked me to sway with him. no word dared to come out of my mouth for i was mesmerized by him. His voice convinced me although I didn't know him that well.

We danced sweetly, like a real couple who's stunned by each other's embrace. We danced so closely, with me never doubting a single thing about him. His mask seemed nice, his voice, so cold, that i was frozen with each word he said. His touch, so warm, that it made my knees weak, i could barely stand.

For a moment, he taught me how to love truly and hold on.
How to be honest, loyal and endure every pain and suffering brought about by loving.
How to be patient, caring, faithful and believed all your lies!
How to be jealous, insecure and proud!
Finally, he took off my mask, and man, did it feel good -- to have me in his arms and love him truly without holding anything back.

This time I knew what i felt was real and I didn't want it to end. I was prepared to take my chances with him and hold on forever to this bliss.

But then suddenly everything changed, even the man i loved became so cold.
Now I know angels are not the only one with disguises! even Lucifer pretended to be the "angel" i was with, the one who changed me, the only person I truly loved my whole life.

He didn't take off his mask, but still he stood here right next to me, and I was hurt unconsciously.

I thought I found my fairytale, but still, everything turned out to be a nightmare!
FUCKING LIFE!
DAMN LOVE!